thinking through pg.896-897#2

Why did I do it? why, I regret so much, I destroyed myself as person and all the value I had , I just put myself so down. Well ,this is how my story goes. I was just 17 years old,my attitude was really bad and I always wanted to have fun but one of the things that I was really obsesed with ,was with money. For me money was everything because I could by me all the thing I wanted to buy and careless for the prise . Expensive things were the best for me, I just wanted to have the best and look the best. One day all of that was gone, can you belive that? I was so desperate that I would do anything to get money and careless of what was it and the consecuences it could bring me. One morning when I was going to school I saw some of my friends hanging by a car that looked really expensive. I went by there and talk to them, and when I turned over to see who was driving, it aws the hottest guy I had ever seen. I swear I could stand stare at him. All my friend were over him , flurtting and everything,but one thing that I thought it wouldn't happen was that he ask my name and started talking to me. My friends got really jelous of me so they just left all mad and looked kind of upset with me but I really didn't cared cause he was gorgeous and plus it looked that he had money. After that day, him and me started going out , he was the best person Ihad ever meet. He bought me anything I wanted, he would give me everything without wanting anything back, I felt so happpy and luky. At scool my friends used to tell me so many bad things about him,that he was bad but one of the worst things they told me was that he saled drugs. I just couldn't belive that , they were just jelous. Everything was so good but one day he asked me that he wanted to have sex with me and I said no, he got so mad that he just didn't cared and forsed me to do that. He didn't cared what I was feeling and that he hurted me. After what he did he didn't told me anything like sorry or an appology.It was during the weekened and all the weekends he used to buy me close , shoes or anything I wanted but that weekened he didn't. I was so upset cause he used to buy me stuff but now cause I wouln't have sex with him he stoped.I couln't live without money ,so to get what I wanted I just had sex with him anyways. I had to have sex with him to get what I wanted.Months passed and I sarted feeling really bad so I decided to go to the doctor , he checked me and everything.When he had my results he told me that I had a kind of aid from having sexual relationships. I felt awful cause I could die , I went to tell him about it and he just said that it wasen't him , that I was being a slat and that cause of me he was going to die. This was the end of me and my life , my parents were sad and coulnt believe it. But it happened, now I'm recruited in a hospital in bed , surffering and 3 more moths to live. I dont even know why me , but it was my fault because of all the stuped things I did to get money now its all gone , even me.I regret this so bad and just wishe to go back and do the right thing ,but it can be and it will never happen. I should of thought of that since the begining.The only advise I could give anyone is that to never put yourself down to anyone and anything cause the counsecuences can be deathly, so try to make the right desisions and you'll achieve your goals. THE END